My Baby Sister With the Designer Genes -
By Moira
Erin came into the world on a snowy Thursday evening, March 1st, 2007. I was thirteen, almost fourteen, and was woken up, at about two in the morning, to the phone being paged. Both cordless phones were in my room. My dad came in saying, "There they are"...I said, "Dad it’s two in the morning! What are you doing looking for the phones AT TWO IN THE MORNING!?!?!" Dad said, "Just go back to sleep, I'll wake you up if something happens." Obviously I was completely oblivious (it being the hour it was) that my mom's due date was in about a week, and that she had been having some contractions the past day. I
almost went back to sleep. Just as I was about to doze back off, it hit me! "AHHHH!!!" I ran to the top of the stairs where I sat and listened. I heard my mom on the phone, "...yeah, my water broke about half a hour ago..." And I'm thinking, "Oh my goodness! The baby is going to be born in the living room!!!” I was still sitting at the top of the stairs when my mom came up very casually. I said "YOU’D BETTER HURRY!" She calmly said, "Oh, I'm going to take a shower and pack some clothes.” So she took her shower and I helped get the clothes together. They left at about three A.M. I didn't sleep the rest of the night.
Later that morning, my siblings
finally woke up. I told them what was going on and they all went crazy! I sent out a couple emails asking for prayers. At about eight that morning my aunt and uncle came over with some food and excited spirits. Hours passed.
My aunt came back that afternoon and brought my siblings and me to our cousins’ house.... still no baby. Then at about 7:45 P.M., my dad called and asked to speak to Molly Grace, my 3-year-old sister. Molly Grace announced to the excited room of eleven Delaney kids, and my aunt and uncle, "It’s a girl...her name is Erin!" Everyone was so happy and a little surprised; Erin was the seventh kid and sixth girl in our family, with only one boy in the middle! Everyone had been thinking it was going to be a boy. I made a couple calls to my friends, and my grandparents in Michigan, telling them my mom was doing fine and Erin was healthy, weighing 7 pounds 3 ounces. I couldn’t wait to see her!
When my dad picked us up at the cousins the next morning (about one hour later than he said he would), he said that Erin had turned blue and was rushed to the NICU earlier that morning. Therefore, we probably wouldn’t be able to see her that day.
On the ride to our house the car was filled with questions: "Does she cry a lot?"..."Does she look like me?"..."What color eyes does she have?" I noticed my dad got a little teared-up, then he said, "Erin is a very patient baby”. Right when he said that my heart was crushed! Without being told, I knew Erin had Down syndrome. I had never thought that my new little sibling would have Down syndrome, or anything like it. I would have been happy at that moment to have a healthy, 7 pound 3 ounce sister with light brown hair. But I felt mad and upset...I didn’t want to see her or get to know her. I didn’t want her to be my sister. I cried and cried and cried.
After we had eaten (me eating very little) that morning and dropped my siblings off at my cousins' house, my dad and I went to the hospital. When we got to the hospital we went to my mom’s room and then to the NICU. When we walked around the corner into the room, I saw there were four babies in there and I wondered which one was Erin. My parents walked straight to the crib with a big heat lamp over it. There was Erin. I saw that she was connected to all kinds of monitors and oxygen tubes. Then I took in her eyes, slanted slightly upwards at the sides, her little button nose, and her mouth with a BIG pout. Her bottom lip was sticking straight out in the biggest pout I had ever seen. The nurse said with a bit of friendly sarcasm, "I don’t think she likes it here”. If her pout could talk it would say, with a sassy little voice, "Pick me up!!! I don’t like being here with all these monitors, and especially with this oxygen tube, UGH!" We started talking to her and I noticed her pout gradually got smaller.
When I held Erin for the first time she just melted my heart. All the anger and unwillingness to accept her just melted away. I was trying so hard not to cry with all the nurses there. She was so cute and helpless. At that moment I was, and still am, determined to help her the rest of my life.
Fast forward to today. Erin is six months old (weighs 11 lbs 7 oz) and is as happy as ever!!! So are we!!! She is very alert and affectionate, and she babbles, “da da da da da”. She does all the things that typical babies do; she just may do them a little bit slower, at her own pace. She especially loves for us to sing to her! She likes any song, sung with
any voice. And never once that I can remember, since she has learned how, has she not smiled back when one of us smiles at her, whether it is one of her smiles so big that her eyes are squinting, or just a little grin when she is about to doze off. Never once since I held her in the NICU did I wish that she did not have Down syndrome.
On Sept. 19th, Erin is going to be having open-heart surgery to close up her VSD. It just breaks my heart to think such a sweet little girl has to go through something like open-heart surgery.
I have felt guilty about how upset and selfish I was when I first heard that Erin had Down syndrome. I now realized that I just needed to learn a little more about Down syndrome. Now I know that when God gave my sister an extra chromosome…...
he was just showin’ off! LOL! Erin is such a blessing. She is the light of my life. I know that God formed her, just as she is, and I know she’ll touch many lives as she grows up……just as she has mine.